Read this word by word.
Sentence by sentence.
Really slowly.





You listen to your surrounding.
You heard nothing.
No stories from Mr Chin.
No scoldings from Mrs Gan.
No jokes from the 6A pupils.
And then you remember.
Ah.
No more stories from Mr Chin.
No more scoldings from Mrs Gan.
No more jokes from the 6A pupils.
You know that Pei Chun will vanish from your life forever.
That 6A will vanish from your life forever.
That those stories will vanish from your life forever.
That those scoldings will vanish from your life forever.
That those jokes will vanish from your life forever.
You want to forget it all.
Delete it from your brain.
Just like you can on the computer, with the click of a mouse.
But no, you can't.
You don't want to remember but you keep thinking of it.
Of Pei Chun.
Of 6A.
Of those stories.
Those scoldings.
Those jokes.
You think that you should be happy.
Happy that you have finally graduated.
You ask yourself, "Isn't this what you always wanted? To graduate? From the first day of school? Cause you detest those stories? Those scoldings?"
And you lie to yourself, "Yes. It is. This is what I always wanted."
But no.
That was not the truth.
That was just to console yourself.
The truth is, you don't want to graduate.
You want to stay in that school forever.
You don't mind getting scolded again.
But you want primary school to continue.
Or even rewind.
You want to go back to primary one.
To listen to those stories again.
To get scolded again.
To laugh with your friends again.
But now they are gone.
There is nothing left.
Just a bunch of empty memories that prove nothing.
That worth nothing.
That is simply nothingness.
You will never see those smiles again.
Nor hear those jokes again.
Nor speak those words again.
It's so warm now, but in your heart, it's so cold.
It's like a lonely winter in your heart.
With no company.
Left to face the harsh weather alone.
That's what it's like now.
But you choose to fool yourself.
That it's a sunny day and we can meet up everyday.
Just like what we do everyday.
But no.
That's just a lie.
A lie to conceal how you really feel.
To conceal the tears that are struggling to spill out.
To conceal the grief.
The sadness.
The emptiness.
The need to reach out to your friends once again.
You need them.
You want them.
You miss them.
But they are not there for you anymore.
They become past tense.
And in the present tense, you are alone.
You are so sad you want to cry.
But you tell yourself not to.
Cause you don't want to let your friends and family see you shed tears.
It's embarrassing.
And you find no reason to cry about.
No valid reason.
But actually.
And I'm telling you now.
You have every right on earth to cry.
To shed the tear you've never dared to shed.
To let your emotions take over.
To let out your feelings.
So let it out, won't you?
Let it out and you'll feel better.
Much better.
And move on.
Forget about the past cause it makes life bitter.
Forget about it and move on.
You feel stupid.
Because no one seems to care.
But you care so much.
And it makes it hurt even more.
But actually everyone cares.
Just remember that.
And bring their well wishes along and carry on.
You can't stop at primary school forever.
Although separation is never blissful.
You want to put on a smile for the last time.
To make the others feel well to.
To let them remember your smile.
But now it's all over.
You don't have to put on an act.
You can lift that burden of yourself and cry out loud.
No one will see.
No one will hear.
No one will laugh at you.
It's not a sin to cry.
And you did it really well.
That last moment.
You handled it well.
By smiling.
So now, it's time to take off that mask.
You want to cry.
You feel like crying.
So just let it out.
Let it all out.
And soon, you we forget about everything.
Like everyone else.
It's already set.
We can't reverse anything.
We can't go travel back in time.
So all we have to do is accept.
Accept the fact that what is past is past.
We should anticipate what the future holds.
You might blame life for being unfair.
For letting it end so quickly.
For letting it end before you know it.
Before you treasured it.
And most importantly, when you took it all for granted.
But what's done cannot be undone.
Life is unfair.
Life is painful.
So we must cry.
So we must vent our emotions.
Don't ask why.
Just do as you are told.
Cry.
Out loud.
Anyway you like it.
Just cry.
And soon, it will be sunny day again.
If you want the rainbow, you must bear with the rain.
No matter how painful it is, let go.
Let go cause we still have our dreams to pursue.
Our wishes to fufil.





Did I make you cry? ^^
That was what I was trying to do siah.
But this is what I wanna say: It's not where you come from that makes you 6A. It's what you do that makes you 6A.
Once a 6A, forever a 6A.
Whenever you need 6A, it'll be on standby. (:
♥ the beauty of freedom
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